第1个回答 2022-06-27
有人深夜放烟花2（短篇小说）
清晨，轻微的脚步声照例惊醒了陆连芝，声音停在她的床头，一缕温暖且带有沐浴露薄荷清香的气息向她微微袭来。她闭着双眼，从被子里伸出胳膊，准确无误地把站在床头的小小身子揽过来，她挪了一下，自己的头就埋进那个小身子里，瞬间让她获得一种脚踏实地的满足感。
“宝贝，今天我们不上学！”好一会儿，她才轻声说，在朦胧的晨光中抚摸过一张温暖而柔嫩的小脸蛋。小身子静静站了一会儿，又像来时那样，踩着轻微的脚步声一声不吭离去了。
此时是清晨六点半，夏季时早就天色大亮了，她一睁开眼就会看见默默经过一夜的饱睡后健康红润的小脸蛋。她们没有闹钟，从来都没有，默默六点半准会站在她的床头，像她的身体里有个闹钟。孩子会站在床头目不转睛看着她，也不叫她，直到她睁开眼睛起床，洗漱好并送她去幼儿园。当然，这是四年前的事情了。默默两岁半开始上幼儿园，但仅去了一年，上幼儿园的时间却像刻在她的脑子里，她从来不用别人操心她起床的事情，这一点，她比大多的孩子都强。陆连芝从来不承认自己的孩子有什么异于常人的毛病，尤其是在智力方面。
在朦胧的晨光里，她看见走出去的小小模糊身影，心里疼了一下。她知道孩子想去上学，但没有一所学校肯接收她。先天性自闭症。在此之前陆连芝从未听说过这个词，这种莫名其妙的病症就这样猝不及防落在她的生活里。默默从出生一直很安静，极少哭泣，对大人的逗弄也爱搭不理，随便一个玩具就能玩到累了独自睡过去。陆连芝觉得这只是孩子的性情所致，这是个安静内向的孩子，怎么可能和疾病有关。直到上了一年的幼儿园后，园里的心理健康老师建议他们（那时候林喆还没离开她们）带孩子去医院好好检查。他们就把孩子从幼儿园接出来了，却再也没法送进去。两年后，林喆选择离开，他说他受不了……
陆连芝有喝早茶的习惯，不是讲究，只是种习惯，譬如有人喜欢起来后冲一杯咖啡醒醒神。她换过多种茶，最终选择冻顶乌龙，冲泡出来有一缕被阳光晒后的干草气息，这气息让她无比迷恋，回甘的芬芳也是她的生活中不多的快乐之一。这并非说陆连芝是个悲观的人，但乐观并不等同于快乐。
照例是先去默默的房间，一间贴着粉蓝色壁纸的小屋。孩子谜一般地喜欢蓝色，墙壁是淡蓝，小床上的铺盖是深蓝，小衣柜是亮蓝，小书桌铺着黛蓝色的桌布。默默穿戴整齐地坐在床上，正在翻看最近新买的童话插画本。她在床边坐下来，目光落在孩子圆圆的脑袋上：她的头发光洁细软，在白炽灯下散发着乌黑的光泽，预示孩子的营养及健康状况良好。陆连芝有种满足，是的，至少她凭一己之力把孩子养得还不错。她忍不住伸手抚摸孩子的脑袋，孩子对她的爱抚无动于衷，沉浸在她少为人知的世界里。
默默的世界于她来说是个谜。默默来自她，她创造了这个生命，但绝大部分时候她不知道孩子在想些什么，她们几乎没有任何默契，默默总是一个人安静待着，几乎不开口表达她的想法。你从她的手里夺走她心爱的玩具，她也只会静静望着你，平静的眼神和表情使你无从判断她的喜怒。她也极少哭泣。从幼儿园接她去检查后，有两年时间，她和林喆带着默默东奔西跑求医，医生最后建议把孩子送到心理健康保健机构进行心理治疗，可是这座小城市哪有什么心理健康机构。后来她在别人的介绍下将默默带去找一位本市退休的心理健康顾问。那是位满头银发的老太太，孀居，儿女都在外地，修养极好。她答应试试。有将近一年的时间，每天早上九点她把默默带去给老太太，下午六点接回来。老太太了解她的生活状况，未收取任何费用，权当多了一个孙女陪伴她打发寂寥白日。变化是有的，每次家里来客人，进门的那一刻，默默会从她沉浸的事情里抬起头，眼神略带点疑问和吃惊打量来客。陆连芝牵着她走在大街上，碰上感兴趣的东西，她的目光也会追随着那东西移动。根据她的表情，陆连芝渐渐了解到孩子喜欢吃包菜、木耳、菠菜和甜玉米，喜欢的水果是木瓜、酥梨和柿子。讨厌猪肉和鸭蛋，她还不怕辣，但反感醋酸。有一次，陆连芝去接她回家，在小区的花圃前遇见一只瘸了腿的流浪猫，猫的左前腿蜷曲着，走路全靠三条腿，这使它走起来头重脚轻的，仿佛随时都可能一头栽倒。三脚猫一蹦一蹦走在她们面前，她们越过猫时，默默挣脱了她的手，在猫的身边站住，瞪着一双吃惊的眼睛。猫很警惕，喉咙发出呜呜的警告声。
“受伤了！”她轻声说。
陆连芝当时愣住了，她记不得有多久没听到孩子说话了。后来她把这件事告诉老太太，老太太说应该把那只受伤的猫带回家，也许那是一个良好的开始。
遗憾的是疫情来了，全国人民禁足于家中，老太太在漫长的禁足期里可能一个人憋太久，生了一场病，被外地的儿子接走，默默的治疗就断了。老太太临走前告诉她，尽可能发现孩子感兴趣的事情，找到共同的情感共鸣点，这也许是个不错的突破口，更重要的是要多陪伴，自闭症的孩子通常都是异常孤独的。默默还算好，有些患者还会有危害他人和自身安全的行为，比如对火感兴趣，动不动就想放火烧东西，包括点燃身上的衣物，等等。默默的独立性也很强，这也是她的优点，切记，一定要多陪伴。
她记住了。把情况和老板以及九五后同事说明，她们都同意她上下午班，每天下午三点后，默默便只能独自一人在家了。她有些不放心，但默默也很快习惯，陆连芝陪伴她吃了早饭和午饭，晚饭提前做好，放在一个双层保温饭盒里，一遍又一遍教她怎么打开保温饭盒并取出饭菜。到饭点时，她便打她的手表电话，默默一般只会按下接听键，并不出声。但只要能按下接听，陆连芝便放心了，她的耳朵紧贴着手机，仔细捕捉那头的点滴声音。她从手机里听到孩子细微的呼吸声，翻看画册的声音。陆连芝告诉孩子该吃饭了，口渴就吃已经洗干净的酥梨。她告诉她现在就去打开保温饭盒。接着她便听见默默走动的脚步声，打开保温饭盒的声音。有时候她听见那头传来一声轻微叹息，她便知道今天把保温饭盒盖子拧得有些紧了，孩子在使力气。这声叹息像极了一把锤子，冷不丁给她的心脏来那么狠狠一下。她的眼眶瞬间温热起来，对孩子的种种亏欠爆满她的心胸。日子算不上辛苦，也或许她心大，她真心没觉得怎么辛苦，当然也会为钱发愁。她没多少存款，但她始终相信自己身上一些令她安心的品质，只要她还健康活着，这些品质便可保证默默和她在任何情况之下，每天早上有温热的早餐，每天晚上有温热的洗澡水，这一点她保证！只是除了温热的早餐和洗澡水，作为一个母亲需要尽的责任太多了，不能做到的都是亏欠，这一点让她受不了。她常常在电话这头轻声对默默说：“妈妈爱你，宝贝，你很棒！”
默默的早饭一般是两个南瓜小馒头，一杯豆浆和一个鸡蛋。她不喜欢喝牛奶，这一点还是老太太告诉她的，而之前她的早餐一直备有牛奶。今天早上她想换一换。陆连芝一边烧水煮茶一边琢磨吃点什么。她查看了冰箱，菠菜还有一点，西红柿两个，一袋杂菌，够了，这些都是极好的配菜，可以煮两碗营养全面的面食。一杯芬芳的热茶下去，身体彻底苏醒了。这时候明亮的阳光刚好从厨房的窗户斜照进来。一个冬日的好天气。薄薄的阳光顿时让陆连芝有一种莫名的好感，对周遭的一切都抱有的柔软的好感。这套八十平米的两居室是二手房，已经是多年房产。那时候她和林喆没那么多钱为结婚购置新房，只能退而求其次。跟房主进来看房时，一看到厨房里这扇望出去便是田野的窗户，她便下了决心。果然，每次做饭都会因为窗外的春播秋收而释怀掉来自琐碎生活的纠结。林喆把房子留给她，购房所欠的部分借款他承担了。
母女俩安静地吃早饭，陆连芝很少动筷子，手边的茶水烟气袅袅。她一直盯着默默。孩子吃东西很雅致，闭着两片红润的小嘴唇细嚼慢咽，每一口都吃得很认真。她的嘴唇像林喆，这也是他身上最吸引她的部分，两个嘴角天然上翘，仿佛唇边时刻挂着微笑，眉毛也像他，粗而黑。额头随她，发际线很整齐，不过略微低了些。长相不算出众，不过很耐看。快要七岁了，她想。所有的小学都不肯接收，她接受这个现实。老太太教会孩子认识不少字，她感激。接下来该怎么办？这个问题像个钟摆，始终在她的心里摇来晃去，如今又添新愁，失业了。
她伸手摸了摸孩子的头，相对于同龄孩子，默默个子偏矮小了些。
“默默，妈妈失去工作了，没有班上了。”她轻声对她说。她从不隐瞒什么，包括和黎尚的交往。她相信孩子能理解，她从来不怀疑孩子的智商。
默默垂着眼皮，认真吃一块带皮的西红柿。
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Someone set off fireworks late at night 2 (short story)
In the early morning, the light footsteps woke Lu Lianzhi as usual. The sound stopped at the head of her bed, and a warm breath with shower gel and mint fragrance hit her slightly. She closed her eyes, stretched out her arm from the quilt, and accurately took over the small body standing at the head of the bed. She moved her head and buried her head in the small body, which instantly gave her a sense of down-to-earth satisfaction.
"Baby, we don't go to school today!" After a while, she whispered, touching a warm and tender little face in the hazy morning light. The little body stood quietly for a while, and left without saying a word, stepping on the slight sound of footsteps as when he came.
It was 6:30 in the morning. It was already bright in summer. As soon as she opened her eyes, she would see her healthy and ruddy face after a full night's sleep. They have no alarm clock, never. They will stand at the head of her bed at 6:30 silently, like an alarm clock in her body. The child will stand at the head of the bed, staring at her and not calling her until she opens her eyes, gets up, washes and takes her to kindergarten. Of course, this was four years ago. Silently, she began to go to kindergarten at the age of two and a half, but she only went to kindergarten for one year. The time of going to kindergarten seems to be engraved in her mind. She never needs others to worry about her getting up, which is better than most children. Lu Lianzhi never admits that her children have any problems different from ordinary people, especially in intelligence.
In the hazy morning light, she saw a small fuzzy figure walking out, and her heart hurt. She knew the child wanted to go to school, but no school would accept her. Congenital autism. Lu Lianzhi had never heard of this word before. This inexplicable disease fell into her life out of guard. Silent from birth has been very quiet, rarely cry, and love to ignore the teasing of adults. Any toy can play until tired and sleep alone. Lu Lianzhi thinks it's just the child's temperament. It's a quiet and introverted child. How can it be related to disease. Until after a year of kindergarten, the mental health teacher in the kindergarten advised them (Lin zhe had not left them at that time) to take the children to the hospital for a good examination. They took the child out of the kindergarten, but they couldn't send it in again. Two years later, Lin zhe chose to leave. He said he couldn't stand it
Lu Lianzhi has the habit of drinking morning tea. It's not particular, it's just a habit. For example, someone likes to wake up with a cup of coffee. She changed many kinds of tea and finally chose frozen top oolong. There was a smell of hay after being sunburned by the sun. This smell made her extremely infatuated. The sweet fragrance was also one of the few pleasures in her life. This is not to say that Lu Lianzhi is a pessimist, but optimism is not equal to happiness.
As usual, go to the silent room first, a small room with pink and blue wallpaper. Children generally like blue, the walls are light blue, the bedding on the small bed is dark blue, the small wardrobe is bright blue, and the small desk is covered with a dark blue tablecloth. Sitting quietly and neatly on the bed, looking through the recently bought fairy tale illustrator. She sat down by the bed and her eyes fell on the child's round head: her hair was smooth and soft, emitting a black luster under the incandescent lamp, indicating that the child's nutrition and health were good. Lu Lianzhi has a kind of satisfaction. Yes, at least she raised her children well on her own. She couldn't help reaching out and touching the child's head. The child was indifferent to her caress and immersed in her little-known world.
The silent world is a mystery to her. Silence comes from her. She created this life, but most of the time she doesn't know what the children are thinking. They have almost no tacit understanding. Silence is always alone and hardly open their mouth to express her thoughts. When you take her beloved toy from her hand, she will only look at you quietly. The calm eyes and expressions make it impossible for you to judge her happiness and anger. She seldom cries. After picking her up from the kindergarten for examination, for two years, she and Lin ran around silently for medical treatment. The doctor finally suggested sending the child to a mental health care institution for psychological treatment, but there was no mental health institution in this small city. Later, under the introduction of others, she will silently take her to a retired mental health consultant in the city. That is an old lady with silver hair. She is a widow. Her children are in other places. She has excellent cultivation. She promised to try. For nearly a year, she took the silence to the old lady at nine o'clock every morning and picked it up at six o'clock in the afternoon. The old lady knew her living conditions without charging any fees, and had the right to be accompanied by another granddaughter to spend her lonely days. There are changes. Every time a guest comes to the house and enters the door, she silently raises her head from what she is immersed in, and looks at the guest with a little doubt and surprise in her eyes. Lu Lianzhi led her along the street. When she came across something she was interested in, her eyes would follow it. According to her expression, Lu Lianzhi gradually learned that children like to eat cabbage, agaric, spinach and sweet corn, and their favorite fruits are papaya, crisp pear and persimmon. Hate pork and duck eggs, she is not afraid of spicy, but she hates acetic acid. Once, Lu Lianzhi went to pick her up and met a lame stray cat in front of the flower bed in the community. The cat's left front leg curled up and walked on three legs, which made it top heavy and light, as if it could fall down at any time. The three legged cat bounced in front of them. When they crossed the cat, they silently broke free of her hand, stood by the cat and stared at a pair of surprised eyes. The cat was alert and gave a warning whine in its throat.
"Hurt!" She whispered.
Lu Lianzhi was stunned. She couldn't remember how long she hadn't heard the child speak. Later, she told the old lady about it. The old lady said that she should take the injured cat home. Maybe it was a good start.
Unfortunately, the epidemic is coming, and people all over the country are grounded at home. The old lady may hold her feet for too long during the long period of grounded, get sick, be picked up by her son from other places, and her silent treatment will be cut off. Before leaving, the old lady told her to find out what the children are interested in and find common emotional resonance points as much as possible, which may be a good breakthrough. More importantly, she should be accompanied more. Autistic children are usually very lonely. Silence is good. Some patients will also have behaviors that endanger others and their own safety, such as being interested in fire and always wanting to set fire to things, including lighting their clothes, and so on. Silent independence is also very strong, which is also her advantage. Remember to accompany more.
She remembered. Explain the situation to her boss and her colleagues after the ninth five year plan. They all agree that she works in the afternoon. After 3 p.m. every day, she can only be at home alone. She was a little worried, but she quickly got used to it silently. Lu Lianzhi accompanied her to have breakfast and lunch. Dinner was prepared in advance and put in a double-layer insulated lunch box. She taught her how to open the insulated lunch box and take out the food again and again. When it was time for dinner, she would call her watch. In silence, she would only press the answer button without making a sound. But as long as she can press to answer, Lu Lianzhi is relieved. Her ears are close to the mobile phone and carefully capture the sound at the other end. She heard the child's subtle breathing and the sound of looking through the album from her mobile phone. Lu Lianzhi told the child that it was time to eat. When he was thirsty, he ate the washed crisp pear. She told her to open the insulated lunch box now. Then she heard the footsteps walking silently and the sound of opening the insulated lunch box. Sometimes she heard a slight sigh from the other end, and she knew that the lid of the insulated lunch box had been tightened a little today, and the child was exerting his strength. The sigh was like a hammer. Leng Buding gave her heart so hard. Her eyes warmed up instantly, and all kinds of debts to the child filled her heart. Life is not hard, or maybe she has a big heart. She really doesn't feel how hard. Of course, she will worry about money. She doesn't have much savings, but she always believes in some reassuring qualities in herself. As long as she is still healthy and alive, these qualities can ensure silence and her. In any case, she has a warm breakfast every morning and a warm bath every night, which she promises! Except for the warm breakfast and bath water, as a mother, she has too many responsibilities to do. All she can't do is owe, which makes her unbearable. She often whispered to me on the phone, "mom loves you, baby, you're great!"
Silent breakfast is usually two pumpkin steamed buns, a cup of soybean milk and an egg. She didn't like to drink milk, which the old lady told her. Before, she had milk for breakfast. She wants to change this morning. Lu Lianzhi thought about what to eat while boiling water and tea. She checked the refrigerator, spinach and a little, two tomatoes and a bag of miscellaneous bacteria. That's enough. These are excellent side dishes that can cook two bowls of nutritious pasta. After a cup of fragrant hot tea, the body wakes up completely. At this time, the bright sun just slanted in from the kitchen window. A fine winter day. The thin sunshine immediately made Lu Lianzhi have an inexplicable good impression, and he had a soft good impression on everything around him. This 80 square meter two bedroom house is a second-hand house, which has been a real estate for many years. At that time, she and Lin zhe didn't have so much money to buy a new house for their marriage, so they had to retreat to the second place. When she came in to see the house with the owner, she made up her mind as soon as she saw the window in the kitchen that looked out into the field. Sure enough, every time I cook, I will be relieved of the entanglement from trivial life because of the spring sowing and autumn harvest outside the window. Lin zhe left the house to her, and he assumed part of the loan owed by the house purchase.
The mother and daughter eat breakfast quietly. Lu Lianzhi seldom uses chopsticks, and the smoke from the tea at hand curls. She kept staring silently. The child eats elegantly, chews and swallows slowly with two small red lips closed, and eats every bite very seriously. Her lips are like Lin Zhe, which is also the part that attracts her most. The corners of her mouth are naturally upturned, as if there is a smile on her lips all the time, and her eyebrows are like him, thick and black. Her forehead followed her, and her hairline was neat, but slightly lower. It doesn't look outstanding, but it looks good. She's almost seven, she thought. All primary schools refused to accept it. She accepted this reality. The old lady was grateful for teaching her children many words. What's next? The problem was like a pendulum, which was always swinging in her heart. Now it added new worries and lost her job.
She reached out and touched the child's head. She was a little shorter than her peers.
"Silently, my mother lost her job and no class." She whispered to her. She never concealed anything, including her association with Li Shang. She believes that the child can understand, and she never doubts the child's IQ.
Silently drooping his eyelids, seriously eat a piece of tomato with skin.
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重点词汇释义
放烟花Fireworks; mass production mix; Fireworks Extravaganza
短篇小说short story
脚步声footsteps; footfall; pitapat
照例as a rule; as usual; usually
沐浴露shower jell; bath lotion
准确无误accurate and precise; be exact in every particular
自己的self
满足感satisfaction; gratification
一声不吭mute as a fish; keep one's mouth shut; Not a word passed one's lips; not say a word
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